So Many Things

There are a lot of thoughts that swirl around my head that surround school and mostly what comes next after this chapter is over and done with. What will I be like as an adult? Will I ever truly be an adult? What if I just want to stay a kid forever? What if I live in my parent's basement and eat pizza rolls? Wait, my parents don't have a basement. Plan foiled. Oh well, maybe I could dig them a basement and then live in it. No, no, no, that'd be a waste of time and besides, that idea is silly. You know what, self? You're silly. What? No I'm not! Yes you are! Not uh! Yeah hu- GUYS! Knock off the yelling up there, you're giving me a headache!

Anyways, the two alter egos in my head are constantly in conflict and what seems to be the easiest solution is often varied with one that is somewhat more difficult but then again is also very strenuous and would leave me little time to the other dozen of things that I need to get time. The key to all of this nonsense? Time management.
If only I were able to gracefully plan my entire life out and make it seem all the easier to sustain my life as a high schooler the way that my grandmother methodically plans conference calls and attends meetings that are several hundreds of miles away in Washington D.C., Chicago, and other fabulous metropolises. I want to be like my grandmother when I grow up and have my own Master's in business administration and departmental finances. Every week when I pick up an edition of The Economist from the newsstand at Barnes & Noble, I find myself thinking like that of a businesswoman that has someplace else she'd rather be getting work done and constantly climbing her ladder. My grandmother is the epitome of ladder climber to the point that I am forced to now believe that it was her that even created the ladder to begin with. She's brilliant and laconic in all the right ways, and she knows how to win over a crowd while simultaneously keeping herself cool, calm, and collected. She's like a superwoman in a suit and when I look at her I want to be able to see a reflection of myself when I get older.
For now, I have to continue gathering every element I need to finalize all of my college applications. Right now, folks, we're looking at Texas State and the University of Dallas. Woo, hoo!